Monday, March 15, 2004 03:18 p.m.
Once he wondered what it was. Once he had actually asked what the big deal was all about, why songs were written about it, why stories were told with such drastic consequences... Once, he had been innocent of the meaning of the word 'jealousy'.
It had been alien to him, the concept of such a feeling, over another person. Over better lives, more money, more friends, higher popularity and test scores, these he could understand. These he could accept, and had sometimes even felt, so accutely he would retreat to the woods, to a certain spring, or another waterfall, to refresh himself, to exhaust himself and drown the yearning and hidden anger.
But of another person's affections... Not in all his twenty-over years did it actually hit him, head-on, square in the face. It had always been his policy to think of the best for others, for their happiness over his own. He supposed that was a reason he was made a teacher -- it wouldn't do to have parents complain about any inconsideration on a teacher's part, and for the students' ages, he supposed they had their grounds. Even if those kids -were- training to be potentially lethal ninja of the best calibre. They were still young, and life, when broken into carefully, can be a most beautiful experience, to watch and to go through.
But back to the harshness of life.
(untitled WK`HK snippet that seems to be drifting away as i type...)
Friday, October 31, 2003 12:15 p.m.
Brown still-tired, but sufficiently rested eyes opened, their gaze finding the window and the clear bright blue of a chill autumn morning sky. The brunet teen lying prone on his chosen place of rest took in the view, the beauty of the light that coloured the clouds differing shades of white and light grey as they swirled and blended in some places with the clear sometimes pale blue.
Today the sky was different for him. Today was different for him. The sky that usually lifted his spirits with its unending blue, the light that would fall on the grass and trees, the wind that would push and pull at the clouds and caress him with its chill as he warmed up to the morning, to the day... He now felt unworthy of it. Unworthy of being there under its infinite boundaries, unworthy of such harmless and lethal beauty. He was stained, savage, a rampaging animal of a human that enjoyed slaughter. Such beauty and loveliness should be denied one as tainted as himself.
He stood, after one more horizontal stretch, and stepped to the window, one hand resting lightly on the frame. Looking out at the vast expanse, out to the horizon, he felt the complexes of the world weigh on his soul as it was torn by two opposing forces. Torn by the part of him that soared with the wind, reached out to the sky, like those times when he was pure, innocent, and none the wiser for the workings of the world. And the other part, that told him he no longer deserved such freedom, such joy of living. He could not die, yet he could not live... Brown eyes gazed out soulessly at that everyday wonder of nature.
A soft, yet sharp sound tugged at his wandering thoughts, snapped him back into himself. A knock? At his door. His head turned to see his tall Eurasian teammate in the doorframe, green eyes taking in the room and then finding him at the window.
"Heyy. You *are* up after all." Yohji's voice was warm, affectionate even, and made him feel better and worse at the same time. Ken nodded, managing a slight curve of his lips. Yohji's head tilted in a momentary assessment of him, then he stepped in and closed the door, crossing over to Ken, where he draped an arm over the T-shirted shoulders and joined him in the window-way.
"I don't claim to know you inside-out, Ken.." Green gaze searching out the unclaimed horizons over slim-lensed sunglasses, Yohji continued. "But I do know you're thinking too much again, ne." Ken said nothing, pain creeping into his eyes and expression as he leaned just the sightest bit into Yohji, not wanting to give away just how much he was thinking. The arm around his shoulders tightened, drawing him closer. "What's being taken from you, Ken? Something's eating away at you..."
[will edit and update title, etc when i have like it/have the time.]
more seiyuu-ismsss
Wednesday, August 20, 2003 09:51 p.m.
...and all this came about because i was suddenly itching to gt more of Tokuyama Hidenori's songs, even if they've nothing to do with Saiyuki... and then i find out he's only a year older than me and hangs out with the Johnny's Ent crowd. o_o;;
and so i went clicking links to this really nice big seiyuu database to read up on more of my fave seiyuu etc... of course as usual the titles my eyes picked out would be just a few of those i'm familiar with or have heard about and am interested in.... and i'm trying not to repeat too much of what i've posted and possibly re-posted before...
Hoshi Souchirou - freakout~ haha, 5 days after me, 11 yrs before and same blood type. he's kira yamato! *squealed* >///< eeps. as we already know apart from our favourite saru from saiyuki and Futoin Kazuki from Get Backers (two chars who possibly couldn't have been more different XD), he's also scryed's Kazuma and PoT's Mukahi Gakuto (i am *so* getting a kick outta the name XD).
Ishida Akira-sama - Gensoumaden Saiyuki's Cho Hakkai, D.N.Angel's Hiwatari Satoshi (o_o), Evangelion's Nagisa Kaoru (that was him?), Gundam Seed's Athrun Zala, Naruto - Gaara of the Desert, Saint Beast - Kirin no Yuda, and bloody hell, he's Eyes Rutherford's voice as well!! damn i wanna watch!!!! @_@~~~
Koyasu Takehito-sama of Fujimiya Aya/Ran - Zechs Merquise/Milliardo Peacecraft fame (what is it with him and schizo characters? =X) is also Angel Sanctuary's Kira Sakuya-senpai (*_*)~~~ , Evangelion's Aoba Shigeru, Fushigi Yuugi's Hotohori, Sakano from Gravitation (i've a feeling i might've repeated that.), Hellsing's Luke Valentine, Initial D's Takahashi Ryousuke, Gundam Seed's Muu La Fraga, KO Seiki Beast - Bud Mint, Shaman King's Faust Diethel, some guy(s) in Rurouni Kenshin (am not familiar lar.), and Mahou Tsukai Tai!'s Aburatsu Ayanojou XDDDD!!! (just never thought it could/would be him... wahahaha)
Miki Shinichirou - Weiss Kreuz's Youji Kudou for one. Angel Sanctuary's Katan, Fushigi Yuugi's Yuuki Keisuke, Generator Gawl - Kouji (that was *him*? o_0), Initial D's Fujiwara Takumi, Kaikan Phrase's Yuki (^__^), Matantei Loki Ragnarok - Yamino Ryusuke (*squeak*), Naruto - Mizuki, and get this: Scrapped Princess - Shannon Cathule (*squealed and then fell over laughing*)
Seki Toshihiko-sama: Sanzo and Duo, etc... Also: Akai Hayate - Nagase Jun, Gundam Seed's Rau La Cruz, Trigun - Legato Bluesummers and a few others that i'm pretty sure that no one's heard of, but have interested me enough to go check 'em out, eheheh...
Seki Tomokazu - Hidaka Ken, Sakura's Big-bro Kinomoto Touya. Also Evangelion's Suzuhara Touji and the voice of Seele. Fake - Dee Laytner, FruBa's Souma Kyou, Fushigi Yuugi's Chichiri & Kouji, Initial D's Takahashi Keisuke, various little roles in the GWing series, Gundam Seed's Yzak Jule, Shadow Skill's Len Fuuma, Taiho Shichauzo's Toukarin Shouji (WHAT?!?!! that was *hiM*!? *_0;;;), Toushinden - Eiji (no i haven't the slightest idea. o_0;), Vandread - Bart Garsus, etc. o_0;
Midorikawa Hikaru - Heero Yuy/Schuldig/Tamahome -_-||| is also: Earthian {III}'s Mesaia (Messiah) o_0!, Mikan Enikki - Yukihiko (no i dunno anything abt it but if jotaro sees this he might say sth XD), Flame of Recca's Mikagami Tokiya (*sigh*), Saint Beast - Houou no Luka, Scryed's Ryuhou (meep? ^^), Slam Dunk's Rukawa Kaede and YuuGiOu's Kaiba Seto (that annoying seahorse chap XD)
Yuuki Hiro (Tsuyusaki Teruhisa), Weiss Kreuz's Tsukiyono Omi/Takatori Mamoru is also Evangelion's Hyuuga Makoto, Gundam 08th MS Team's Mikel Ninorich and has a few roles in R.Kenshin.
Okiayu Ryoutarou (his pic on the site is *bloody* young (looks younger than me can!?)>> http://www.win.ne.jp/~toshi/seiyuu/okiayu-ryoutarou/ ..and rather cute.. =X) of Brad Crawford, Treize Kushrenada fame: (funny how he and Koyasu-sama are best friends in one series and archenemies in another, ehheh) Also D.N.Angel's Dark Maoshi (note to self after 15 seconds of "...who?" *blur*: Dark lar, Daisuke's alter-ego. have to admit that this spelling makes more sense than the romanized one ^^;;), DiGi Charat - Kimura Takurou, El Hazard - Jinnai Katsuhiko (BwaHaHaa!!! that's *HiM*?! that spaztic student council pres?! XDD~!), Fruits Basket - Souma Shigure (*sighZz* n_n), Gensou Maden Saiyuuki {Movie} - Dougan (eeeEeHHhh~?!), Hellsing's Enrico Salvaletti, Kizuna's Samejima Ranmaru (damn, coz of the Brad Crawford image i keep thinking he shld be Kei =X someone else up there was in it too, but i didn't note here i think, or it coulda bin Bronze...), Love Hina - Sakata Kentarou (*coughLoveHinaEhcough* x_x;;;), Majutsushi Orphen (Sorcerous Stabber Orphen) - Hartia (*DIES* he was HARTIA!??! i *LOVED* that character!! T_T), Flame of Recca - Kurei, various roles in Sailor Moon series *sdrop*, Slam Dunk Mitsui Hisashi (haAaArRh~?!), PoT's Tezuka Kunimitsu, YuuGiOu's Honda. *blinks repeatedly*
Well a good number of them worked together on stuff like Outlaw Star, Excel Saga (?), Star Ocean EX (almost all!), GTO and alotalotta others which i didn't mention... these pple gotta know practically every other seiyuu in such case o_0; Just amazing. *sigh* As happening as the page was it didn't have Hirata Hiroaki's entry T_T ah well.
another peek into another page revealed Hirata-sama to be Sanji from One Piece among many others that i ain't got no time to label here. i am really starting to like Crimson, and and itching to get my hands on Rebirth... he's got a great voice - Bad Friends is going on my CDRW, despite its un-quietness... ehehheh.
There's this track called Saiyuki - Blue is damned nice as well ^___^ (uhhh... and then finding tokuyama's stuff has a track called Blue (Album version)...? okay. ^^;;;) So it's from his Still Time release... he's also acted in a coupla movies i guess. Cross fire, Oshikirigekijouban (released in Korean as Oshiki) ...*freaks out* he was in Gakkou Kaidan!! the thrilogy that art central showed once~ damn, sweet storyline ne T_T 98... he must've been pretty darned young *thinks* fourteen? hmmz.
missed out alot in between...
Sunday, June 8, 2003 05:29 p.m.
since it's stuff that i may not post at all. for various reasons. ...ahhaha.
anyway.
Sanzo is Watari. Genjo Sanzo is Watari is Duo Maxwell. Gensoumaden Saiyuki's stick-up-the-ass Genjo Sanzo Hoshi-sama is Yami no Matsuei's 2nd-place genkiness Watari Yutaka is Gundam Wing's manic Death Incarnate Duo Maxwell. O_O Aiieeee. And Konzen Douji of course. And Knight of Weiss Kreuz Gluhen. That's Seki Toshihiko-sama for you. One of the best singing voices i've heard off a seiyuu. ^__^ *is collecting mp3's XD* He also seems to have the longest list of Overseas Drama's, including Baywatch, Melrose Place,Family Ties where he voices the dub (<< i'm presuming here na) for David among others...
Kudoh Yohji is Tsuzuki Asato!! *squeals* And Escaflowne's Allen. ^^; And Kaikan Phrase's Yuki. And Pokemon's Kojirou ^^;;; Miki Shinichirou-sama is also (imho) the most photogenic in most of the Weiss seiyuu pics i've seen =P As much as (sometimes even more than)...
Fujimiya Aya is Zechs Merquise/Milliardo PeaceCraft is KOF's Yabuki Shingo is NGEva Game's Aoba Shigeru is aLOT of people. *Seeing stars* Koyasu Takehito-sama's credit list is the longest of the three. The guy's got his voice in many anime i've seen: Ninku, Taiho Shichauzo (u're under arrest), Majutsushi Orphen, Spriggan (He's Janne! =D!) and a good deal i haven't (Getbackers, Clamp detectives, Shadowskill *cough*Crayon Shin-chan *Cough*, Initial-D, Inu Yasha (sth-tenmaru?), Angel Sanct CD Drama, Gravitation (Sakano)...and of *course*, Guilty Gear XX's Eddie. *beams* but not GGX's Zato-1, coz he took over after the other seiyuu passed away, i think. (paiseh if wrong...)
And the other Seki-seiyuu, Seki Tomokazu-sama who is Weiss' Hidaka Ken, is also Fushigi Yuugi's Chichiri, Gravitation's Shuuichi, Escaflowne's Van (!!), and X's Kamui (!!! *thinks of that X AMV i downloaded to the tune of Rammstein's DuHast [plug: Comes with subtitles! but questionable resolution --;;] which ends with that heartwrench wail/sob of "Fuumaaaaaaa!!!!" and sighs*), Recca's Tsukishiro (sp?), Marmalade Boy (Murai, Sakai? o_0?), Toshi of Kizuna 2, Pokemon's Kenji (another one) and a good deal more, including Tookanaru toki sora no naka de (?? my romanizing & kanji is quite pathetic. inform of any mistakes if u can thanks XD)'s (Sen1 as in forest)-mura Ten-(zhen1) << sibeh jialat la, dun dare anyhow guess the name ^^;;
More amusement for me: Nagi's Yuu Yuu Hakusho's Yuusuke. *faints* And CardCaptor's Eriol. (Sasaki Nozomu)
Oh, and Crawford's Gundam Wing's Treize, Gravitation's K, Kizuna's Ranmaru and (get this) Marmalade Boy's (again?! o_o) Yuu. *eyes pop out* Stick-up-the-ass Crawford? Marmalade Boy? No click. o_o;;; XD! (Okiayu Ryoutarou)
Schuldich is everyone's favourite self-destructor Heero Yuy (*rolls eyes, actually i prefer Duo XD*) as well as Tamahome off Fushigi Yuugi (but i bet everyone knew that already. ><) (Midorikawa Hikaru - am listening to Even If You Smile/Tatoe Kimi ga Hohoendemo atm... GW ST i believe, ehhe)
Each of these seiyuu (among so many more) have bloody long lists of animes/ova's/games/cd releases/singles etcetcetc that i can't possibly mention anything near all, don't even think i can read all of it haha. So many overlaps, so many projects, these guys must know aLOT of each other. eg. Tres Blanc. Koyasu-sama & co from Weiss, Seki Toshihiko-sama & co from Saiyuki. And they've probably run into each other countless other projects... Must be one helluva humongous circle there. Too bad being a seiyuu in SG has like zilch prospects, it's been a closet ambition of mine since i found anime, lol...
...Does having bizarre, macabre dreams involving a long-haired girl (my sister), blood and a certain ham slicer in my kitchen necessarily mean i'm reading too many weiss fics? *sigh* not, it's not my sister who gets cut by that thing. but there's blood nonetheless. and that blade is bloody sharp. and it's bloody too, in the dream... geez. -_-;;;
i am such a clever fool.
Thursday, May 29, 2003 05:08 a.m.
of all the time i finally pulled out to do my fics (among some countless other things of more import and urgency) i have to leave my lecture pad (where i have some half a dozen drafts and over twenty ideas for fics in a comic shop. and it's not even the one downstairs. it's the one one and a half busstops away. that has me owing six books on my membership and four of them are with a friend i've not seen in close to a year. who doesn't have a handphone. and who doesn't have my new number. i am so, utterly, confoundedly brilliant. and i have to write a report of sorts detailing my social service project trip with a local Opus Dei group to Melaka (Malacca, ditto) which ended ten days ago, and in the meantime my temperature has not once risen above 36.5 degress celsius and therefore i am officially sars-free. yeahay. plus the only reason i am still up and tapping at five am is coz my parents have gone to steal a little quiet time for themselves on a cruise to nowhere and will be back anytime in the next eight to twelve hours or so. and then my mum will take a good long look at this no-longer nineteen-year-old with the hair that's too long to be appropriate and conclude without fail that i've not slept sixty seconds overnight and... i've got stuff to do. i'm so tired. ive got too much to do. and not enough time. ah, hell. i'll work on that report and some other research now. fics up when i can get them up. sorry to anyone who's waiting...
Scary to realize how long it's been since i lasted posted here. ^^;;
Thursday, May 22, 2003 05:10 p.m.
Been a darned long while, eh? ^^;;
...Am now working on Rogue Feelings 2, thanks so much to all those people who reviewed, on ff.net as well as via email ^_^ sorry to keep y'all waiting like that. argh >< may start/write/post a few more fics that aren't RF... please don't kill me ^^; these fic ideas are Saiyuki, Weiss Kreuz, Guilty Gear and Yami no Matsuei mostly. Some are crossovers/Parodies *sweatdrop* and so. i'll try not to waste time now. Back to the fic ^^;;
oops.
Monday, May 5, 2003 10:33 p.m.
neglected to mention that after posting (and taking forever to get the bloomin' formatting that ff.net needed right), i read through the fic and was quite appalled to note that i had at least 3 sets of repeated words, in the same paragraph. geeez. need to expand my vocabulary, and turn on my beta mode a coupla degrees higher next time. jya.
just a quick word to say....
Monday, May 5, 2003 10:17 p.m.
...that i've barely studied enough for tomorrow's paper (good luck to me), and i enjoyed hanging out with the j-rock pple to celebrate some 3/4 pple's bday's on saturday, and that i'm extremely elated (more on this later) to receive 4 reviews on my saiyuki fic part1 ^__^ and one (the First, no less!) is from the endearingly encouraging and absolutely fabulous writer e-sama himself! *beams happily* this news is slightly belated, actually. ^^; but man, the moment my exams are outta the way... bwahaha. my fics take high priority with my sketches and ggxx and that job. haha. read that hilarious MST of ff.net's Rain (saiyuki fic) that was up at mm.org. laughed a sore throat into being by not laughing, or trying like hell not to. three chapters. *snickers* hilarious. hehe.
drafted out the next coupla chapters for Rogue feelings as well as sketchy drafts for a coupla other fics. downloaded a coupla AMV's recently that feel worthy of mention... Saiyuki's "You Give Love a Bad Name", song by Bon Jovi, and Yami no Matsuei's "Cruel", song by Tori Amos. The first has the coolest timing and some incredibly cute shots ("You act so -SHY-~" XD) while the other has tonnes of gorgeous Tsuzuki in it, with alot of Muraki in it as well. damned tempted to write a fic after watching it. really heart-gripping in a way and throws your emo's around. want to buy the YnM & Saiyuki animes for keeps. hehe. alright. Digital Electronics tomorrow at 0830 am. back to studying. jya ^^/
New Fic Upload. Finally.
Thursday, May 1, 2003 12:14 a.m.
Title: Rogue Feelings
Saiyuki fic, set in the time Gojyo & Hakkai spent together before the Journey.
Author: Shiroki Kietsuki
Started: 30.04.03 Tuesday, 1315hrs
Archive: fanfiction.net, mediaminer.org, shiroki.pitas.com.
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Gojyo stared out the window at the pouring whiteness tinged with gray, loathe to get anywhere out of the warm comfort of his bed, and with good reason. His head hurt like the bottles he'd drained the night before were attempting to break themselves over his head. It was probably barely noon anyway.
Vaguely he realised he had practically zero memory of making it to bed, let alone fairly comfortably undressed. Hakkai must have met him at the door again despite whatever unearthly hour he'd been... advised to head home by the bartender on duty. He'd not been as cordial with the ladies as previously reputed in the past
few days, choosing instead to just earn a fairly necessary amount at the card
table and then retreat to the bar, nursing a need for oblivion from the chaotic
disaster that was the result of an afternoon of trying to look at his life from a
multitude of angles.
//Hakkai must have been caught in the rain.//
Gojyo blinked rapidly, trying to push the dull, pounding pain aside in deference
to coherent thought. He'd heard the brunette's low tones informing his
semi-conscious self that he was going out to pick up some things. He stared out
the window again at the unceasing rain. He'd noticed the unwanted negative effect
the meteorological occurence had on his housemate. Roommate. Whatever. He scowled
at his uncooperative brain. Friend. Happy?
//Not _more_ than "Friend"?//
He let his eyes slide close in defeat. Best Friend, he offered weakly to his
vindictive and too-awake conscience. Or sub-conscience.
Whatever it was, it refused to leave him alone. Right from the moment he'd picked
up the limp blood-soaked body with the desolate green eyes which claimed to desire
death, yet struggled to live on for a yet unfulfilled wish. Even as he had
desperately searched for adequate medical facilities to treat the young stranger
in his arms, the body he held close without regard to the blood staining his own
clothes woke that other consciousness.
The one that said with a soft sigh, //At last.// The one that had him stop dead in
his tracks and ask out loud, "What?" The one he had shaken off that time to more
pressing matters, but not deterred properly, apparently. Never deterred. The voice
spoke to him, whispered hints of secrets it knew, about him. About Gojyo. About
Gojyo? And about...before. Before?
Where had this damned voice come from, anyway?
Popping its annoying head up every now and then, informing him to little things
about Hakkai that he wouldn't have picked up on on his own, incomprehensively
enhancing the feeling of familiarity that slowly grew on Gojyo as they spent time
together upon Hakkai's return from the 'death' of Gonou to nothing he'd ever felt
with anyone before. Like they'd known each other from... before. Before? That word
again. Before, when?
The past few months, year plus past had been comfortable, following Gojyo's
resolved emotional crisis which began when the green-eyed man had bowed his
despaired, yet resigned, bloodied face in surrender and left with that insolent
blaggart of a monk. Monk indeed. Full head of blonde hair, bloomin' Smith &
Wessons, for goodness' sake! And a foul mouth to boot. Cold, insensitive and
bossy. Monk? What monk?! Sheesh.
//You again. Still the same cold bastard.//
Exasperation, Gojyo had noted without surprise. You know this guy as well? I mean,
_I_ know this guy as well? From *Before* as well, i suppose. And the little loyal
kid who followed the pushy ass around with all the loyal dedication of a pet.
//Still the same little monkey.//
The impression was practically fond at this point, baffling Gojyo quite thoroughly
even as he wordlessly bitten back a groan at that. What, him, too? Do i know the
rest of the damn weird world from "Before" as well? ...Monkey? Why, he did have
abit of the look, actually. With the most innocent and unique eyes. Although Gojyo
had very nearly turned his back on Sanzo to charge the youth as said youth
attacked Hakkai, Gonou on the Sanzo's command.
Sanzo or no Sanzo, the man had barely healed, and now all this agitation was going
to rip his wounds open again, or worse. That stupid hidden self had thrown all the
hidden animosity Gojyo never even knew he had at the blonde in the conspicuous
robes. And to what end? Gonou had managed to resolve the situation himself, more
or less, for more time to finish his mission. And after that, the Sanzo and his
pet had said, himself. A chill had run down his spine then, and he had swallowed
his pride, ego and irritation at the odd pair who'd come barraging into his life
in the most bizarre fashion, following said two in a quest to soothe the worry
and concern for the man he'd helped bring back to life.
That quest had led to an unwanted view of a different side of the brown-haired man
he'd come to view as familiar. It had been a chilling experience to say the least,
seeing the blood running down the calmly dead expressionless face, the lips
twisting just barely, as if he was removing a pair of spectacles on a whimsical
request to see his eyes rather than an eyeball in acquiescence to a demand for
blood born of vengeance. That he would never see again.
The horror of the moment, the process of dismemberment of sorts that had Gojyo
rooted to the spot, silently repeating 'No. No. NO...' even as that inner one
almost screamed //Dame!// was broken by a yell and a widening of green eyes, one
made bloody by ruthlessly unheeding fingertips with a mission. The youngster had
admonished Gonou in a most unexpected manner. Life was weird. But he'd said the
words Gojyo had thought so often and never said. And most thankfully he'd stopped
the horrible deed. When that whole crisis had been resolved, a vengeful youkai
disposed of, by Hakkai- Gonou's own hand, courtesy of an unprecedented (and
unauthorized) loan of a Sanzo's gun, Gonou had looked at him. One verdant eye and
a hooded, bloodied crimson one had looked at him. A look that said I'm sorry, I'm so
sorry you saw that...
I'm sorry. I apologize. My apologies. It was thoughtless of me... the words
brought Gojyo to present reality with a jolt. The headache had receeded by some
measure and the rain was slowing down. Those words... Hakkai had used them too
often and Gojyo not often enough. He sat up slowly, not wanting to jarr the
pounding back into being. Noting the common painkilling medication and a glass of
water by the bedside, he took it gratefully. He was going to go out looking for
his brown-haired companion if he wasn't back in ten minutes.
Rain drove his friend to distraction, desolation and nightmares. But damned if he
was going to probe into the man's privacy. Yet he felt an undeniable need to
ensure the guy was okay. He could do as much. He'd been doing as much since he
peeled him off the damp forest floor a good long time ago, it seemed. Yet the
other had been doing so much more for him, he felt like the selfish bastard he
looked like he'd become, disappearing for hours on end to the bar and such, to
quell the disturbing notions that someone, something had planted in his--
//Disturbing? Because they're true, baka.//
The bloody voice was back. Nagging in that drawling way he himself had, but
more... flippant, if that was possible. Geez. He was going to go nuts. Or was he
already? The guilt was getting to him now. Hakkai was the perfect gentleman,
polite, careful, considerate and modest, and he was the direct opposite. The
perfect rogue. Brash, hot-headed, devil-may-care--
//Flippant...//
He winced inwardly despite his irritation. That, too.
//And pretty insensitive at times... you're not very much better than that blonde
stick-up-the-ass...//
He growled audibly this time. If that voice would just please shut up so that he
could go look for Hakkai... His friend's uncharacteristic delay in returning
despite the slowing and stopping of the rain worried Gojyo. More than it should,
typically.
//...//
No. Don't -say- anything, dammit!
//...you should be worrying more than that.//
...What the hell...?!
//..Just go look for him already. I'm getting worried myself.//
Gojyo gave up without so much as a retort. That voice was just incorrigible.
//...not as bad as yourself, sometimes.//
Shut up.
//...Then get your ass Moving, dammit.//
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End part one of... one, so far. Thank you for reading this far.
Should i continue this? *sigh* Should i?
Is anyone/everyone confused/annoyed by the way i get the POV's/voices untypically
done?
Could i have an opinion, or two? Please?
This is my first posted piece of work, despite my thought on that little Weiss
piece i did called Warmth in the Rain. That will be posted sometime this week, or
next. And for fanart... when i get a scanner. Coupla sketches i could use opinions
on, too... Douzo Yoroshiku.
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Posted 0015 hrs 01.05.03 Thurs. Happy May DAy. Labour Day. etc,etc,etc.
May i rip this damn eyeball out?! ...sorry. my right eyes has been giving me grief
the whole afternoon since i was dumb enough to fall asleep with my lenses on last
night. Ah well. Life.
dotdotdot.
Sunday, April 20, 2003 10:54 p.m.
brother reformatted the computer. *cries* all my fics have to be retyped. yaaaaay. *swears* ...Happy Easter, btw.
of bridgets and duos... *sigh*
Friday, April 18, 2003 10:33 p.m.
dust asked me yesterday why i suddenly started playing bridget. good question, tricky question. didn't have an answer at the ready, but the most obviously unincriminating one would be that i simply wanted to try another character, and it happened to be his cute lil' buri-chan. ah well. my latest realization is that maybe i just got a particular liking toward genki kids in religious outfits. i was going to say uniform, but it didn't sound very right. i am, after all, a Die-Hard Duo Maxwell fan. ^_^
i'm working on the base of a gojyo n hakkai piece called 'come undone'. think someone may have used that as a title before. j-rock fic, if i'm not wrong. shiiet. darn, but worse come to worst, think up another title na...
at TS today i picked out a short black item that i can customize for a black bridget. gotta get rid of the sleeves though. for a white one, i've got a cream-tinged one i can use, since the white bridget has two tones of white anyway. again, the sleeves. blah. black bridget has brown hair btw. white one at least has black hair. my hair? not really brown not really black. -___- yay. wonder if i can possibly make it for the july c/play. doubt it actually, but i could -try-. and how to get that maxwell fringe that bridget has? imagine going to the salon with a pic of duo or bridget. *scoffs abit.*
drawingwise, my bridgets are bouncing left & right but not hitting center. gene & dust agreed on the fact that the first bridget i sketched in light blue looks too old. more to 15-16 or 13-14 rather than 11. sketched another in red at the clubroom the other day, and think zat/jojo/jotaro i forget who said he looked too young this time. like six or seven. *slaps forehead* ah well. enuff's zanuff. think i've gotta start preparing for tomorrow and stuff. sore jya.
hasty lil' update.
Sunday, April 13, 2003 12:54 p.m.
Drawing: i edited my testament and bridget sketches another few times. turns out my previous bridgets had the wrong hair. *scoffs* why is it i always feel like drawing some 2-3 a.m.'s? then my hand's not too steady and i wind up wanting to erase half the lines i put down. think i wanna get some paper and actually draft out the sketches. also sketched one jam (need more detail on the hair, lol) and a millia. want more detail on the cos. same with bridget. and eddie. (haven't sketched him yet, but intend to.) and zappa. he's actually wearing a bodysuit but i can't figure out the neck. weird lines. oh, and anji's outfit. i attempted a slayer but it turned out looking horrendous. bwahaha. the anji wasn't too great either, but ah well. will watch more.
Fics & Writing: Stood around in school during a half-hour break and scribbled out a light Weiss fic. Will probably be the first thing i post on both ff.net and mm.org. it's short. and it's quite AU. big surprise. haha. still haven't found the GW AU ficcy yet. the other day i managed to type out some of the j-r (DeG) fic i showed a few of my friends. but it's not done yet, will hafta wait. gotta pick up some paragraphing tips from e-sama and the other author whose work ff.net screwed up alittle by magnifying her paragraphing spaces. the enlarged spaces were a pain, but i like her breaks. as in where to break for speech, etc. general paragraphing shit that i guess i never really got excessive hang of in secondary school.
ah, it just turned one. updates end here. maybe back again later. jya, mata ne. ^^/
update. minorly.
Wednesday, April 9, 2003 12:36 a.m.
typed out most of what's done of the kaoru & die lemonade the last time. still looking for that little GW slightly-AU piece i did that time. drew a few sketches of Testament & Bridget of Guilty Gear XX. that's all for now. cyaZz.
Drained.
Wednesday, April 2, 2003 10:57 a.m.
ah yeah... somehow i just knew i'd get him... characterwise too similar for my own good. but i've got streaks of gojyo and sanzo as well, talking and swearing too much, plus being a fucking cold, don't-give-a-bloody-damn bastard at others. so who's a living saiyuki character?
it's 10.30 am, and i'm sitting at the dining table in exactly the same thing i came back in more than twelve hours ago, sans the socks. my parents are out of town (went to tioman with a few friends) and won't be back til tomorrow. which is fine with me since i've got no school today... but i skipped going to my grandma's place although i -did- initially have every intent of going... i called her just now and told her i'd fallen asleep. not really a lie, since i -did- fall asleep a few times, but it wasn't the knock-out case that í used to have in secondary school: come home after 3-4 days of not enough sleep cramming for a set of tests and then collapse like a stone drunk and sleep to the next morning.
speaking of morning, it rained again today. at sunrise, i agree, the sky was a lovely colour. the clouds were virtually opaque and clouds make an ethereal canvas when it comes to rainy sunrise mornings. whereas at about 4-5 am the area nearby was still almost pitch-dark, with just the barest semblence of a pinkish tinge to the skyline. but you could see the clouds coming. they were deep and dense, blocking out all visibility past several streets down, in any direction. it scared me somewhat, shook me up just a little to realize that i actually could feel helplessly isolated just by that. now the sky is bright to say the least, and the chill that i closed the windows on when it started to pour is starting to make its absence known.
i'm going to open those damn windows, wash up, brush my teeth, maybe take a shower and then get something to eat. coffee sounds like a good idea. i've abstained from the stuff for a good month or so, it'll be a relief to taste abit of it again. i've got to get some work done today, and i'll be darned if i don't find time to slip down to bugis to play some ggxx. i think... i think it would be fun to really get good at it. not just lucky, but good. good enough to confidently accept challenges and be close-to on par with the rest. it would make things interesting. i think i agree with you on that. of course, that will probably not stop your characters from pounding mine into the dust like they pound everyone else's...
admittedly chatting with you was... an interesting, even intriguing experience. it seemed very... expected that the player i'd stood quietly laughing behind so many games had such a personality, and yet many things came out quite unexpected, and then again... so incredibly you. how do i say this? i think i'd like to get to know you, just be your friend. i already know a few of the others, i think it shouldn't be too difficult. for some thing, at east our communication felt natural to me, and it has been awhile since i typed and reacted so easily to someone new online. never mind that i already know who you are, and you already know who i am. i didn't know you personally beyond your face, nick and the possibility that you were a design student, and your gameplay characters. i hope you got enough sleep and that you managed to go for that ridiculous class of yours. 15 minutes, if it were me dchances are i'd skip if i could, but you said you couldn't. figures. one of the banes of poly life is that awful word 'debar'. ah well, it happens.
speaking of poly life my day isn't that great after all; i -do- have a class, following that Free Access Lab to finish up my engineering drawing garbage.
and for a couple of lines that i created this page in the first place: Love ~Lost in the Pain~ [part 1 of ?] is in the works, finally. i'll try to dig out my J-rock fics as well. for now, i gotta get off my ass if i wanna get to class on time and not die of gastric halfway. mata.
decided to create a new pitas a/cc just to gripe about fics. ah yeah i don't have any posted on ff.net yet, but i do have quite a few that AREN'T GOING ANYWHERE!!! *cries*
Saiyuki/J-Rock - Saiyuki Lunacy & Saiyuki en Grey (J-R fans, don't kill me ^^;;;)
Saiyuki - Deja Vu; Love ~Lost in the Pain~; Calling (yes the last two are songfics based on Chisato of Penicillin's '97 solo works, and the first is that song from Luna Sea... and i -will- too get them translations... o_o;;;); that ridiculous humourfic that i wa considering (details out at a later date ^^;)
J-Rock - that Die & Kaoru dressing room lemon-angst that i let a couple of pple read last year i think, but never finished; an AU fic (forgot details atm), the hide anniversary fic i wrote last year, and a good freakin' deal of others. i'll go customize this page soon. mata ne ><
